After just saying I would blog through it all, I must re-visit that decision. Something happened today, something scarier than what's been going on so far. I don't think I can blog about it. I think I should, to help someone else who might be up in the middle of the night, wondering what to do when it happens. But I also think that for the sake of my kids, this is probably on the other side of the proverbial line. So I will sleep on it and decide.
If you don't hear from me for a few days, fear not, I will be back, but I think I might need a bit of time to process this. Or then again, maybe tomorrow I'll find a way to write this down without too many details..... stay tuned.
Hi. Delurking (from Australia) to say that I wish you well and I hope everything works out okay. And you're right to be circumspect about revealing too much, especially when it comes to the kids.
Cheers,
Cathy (a-p to two)
Posted by: Cathy | February 21, 2007 at 10:07 PM
Warm thoughts as you work through this. I know you know this, but your obligation is not to others. Only share if it might help you. Helping others can come much later, when the present is a memory. Take good care of yourself. ~lmc
Posted by: lisa | February 21, 2007 at 10:27 PM
You do what feels right to you. Your only obilgation is to your family right now. I am thinking about you and the Beach Ball and Sprout and your DH who must be getting tired with all the focus on him, and I just hope that life starts to get a bit easier soon.
Posted by: Heather Ann | February 21, 2007 at 10:50 PM
Oh, dear! I hope things settle down for you soon. If you feel like talking about it, then do, but don't feel obligated. It's your life, and BB's life, not ours, and whatever feels right to *you* is what's important. Hugs.
Posted by: OmegaMom | February 21, 2007 at 10:52 PM
Sending you and yours good energy to get through the tough spots.
Posted by: rose | February 21, 2007 at 11:15 PM
The blog should be fun and something you enjoy, not something you are uncomfortable with. Forget principle. If you think it'll help you to talk about it, email friends. Heck, email me. But if you think it's not something you want to be public, keep it private.
It's as simple as that.
Posted by: Dirk | February 21, 2007 at 11:45 PM
I'm thinking about you all and certainly respect your decision to privacy.
Posted by: Wendy | February 22, 2007 at 02:28 AM
I am sending you thoughts of peace. If you need a break by all means take it. You need to take care of you first and all other things will fall into place. If you need someone to email who has been there twice also with this whirlwind of adoption I would be more than happy to try to help you out.
Posted by: Julie | February 22, 2007 at 03:00 AM
Thinking of you......
Mijk
Posted by: mijk | February 22, 2007 at 03:49 AM
As everyone else has said you have NO obligation to anyone except your family. Take care of yourself and them. We'll be thinking of you and praying that you and yours get through this bumpy part of your trip.
~Carla
Posted by: Carla | February 22, 2007 at 08:26 AM
again, you have no obligation to us. whatever you decide to share i am grateful to read, but it's certainly not something you have to do.
hang in there.
Posted by: kjames | February 22, 2007 at 08:31 AM
What Julie said above -- Take care of yourself.
Posted by: Elaine | February 22, 2007 at 08:37 AM
Hope everything works out for you and your family! Hang in there, you'll make it!
Posted by: Mar | February 22, 2007 at 08:40 AM
Hope all works out well ... in a reasonable timeframe. Here's my two cents (since you blogged about your uncertainty): Find someone who is not related to the situation to just vent to, someone you know will let you talk without judgement and without trying to fix things. You may need other folks, too, but that precious sponge may give back more than you'll know at the outset.
Wow, I'm a pushy little stranger, aren't I?
best,
k
Posted by: mama d | February 22, 2007 at 09:06 AM
thinking of you.
Posted by: Cat, Galloping | February 22, 2007 at 09:10 AM
Thinking of you..
Posted by: baggage | February 22, 2007 at 10:35 AM
You have to do what feels right for you and your family. Hang in there.
Posted by: jen | February 22, 2007 at 11:15 AM
Listen, This is YOUR blog. You have the right to decide what goes in and what doesn't. Please do what is right for YOUR FAMILY.
BTW- remember I mentioned my one daughter wanted daddy? Last night she litterealy tried to gouge my eye while screaming for him. Sigh.
Good luck with the current situation and remember the key to parenting, this too will pass
Posted by: Spacemom | February 22, 2007 at 11:35 AM
Take care of yourself and your family and write what you feel is best. I do hope things are ok. Thinking of you----Jenny
Posted by: Jenny | February 22, 2007 at 01:02 PM
Take care of yourself and your family. Sending good thoughts for all of you.
Posted by: Janet | February 22, 2007 at 01:06 PM
Oh, I hope you do blog about it. So many people just think they are so alone in all of this. Anyho9w, I have been thinking of you all and sending good jie jie your way!
Love
Debbie
Posted by: debbie in the UK | February 22, 2007 at 01:39 PM
My warmest thoughts for strength, perspective and wisdom to make the best choices for your family. Listen to the small voice, it's usually right.
Marji
Posted by: Marji | February 22, 2007 at 01:42 PM
Thinking of you and echoing what others have said. I especially like the comment about the timing of it being when the present is a memory. Take care, Pink
Posted by: PinkPoppies | February 22, 2007 at 03:25 PM