the post I didn't want to come back for

at 4:30 yesterday afternoon, after a 6 year battle,
 the last 14 months of which were hard fought,
 my mother finally allowed herself the rest she so deserved and left us. 

My mother was a force of nature. For many years, this meant that we could not get along.
 But the day she became a grand-mother, so far away in China, we put all our differences aside,
 and we found our common ground. All the kids things I know about being a mother, I learned

them from her. Some of the things I do I also do because she didn't to them. But I appreciate
that, because all she ever cared about was that we be happy.

From her, I get many of the traits that make me who I am:
my creativity, my sense of style, my need to constantly over-do everything,
my stick-to-ivness and ability to achieve whatever I set my mind to. 
That's exactely how she was.

She didn't see me turn 40. I know that was what kept her going, because she was 34 when her own mother died, and that was one of her regrets, that my grand-mother didn't see her turn 40. 
Somehow, I'm going to think of something special in the next few months, to make
her really proud.

Comments

[kern]

I was excited to see you post again but what a loss. I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. It sounds to me that you have already made your mom proud. You're a successful business woman, wife, mother of two-and a neat person to boot. That's a legacy any mom would be proud of.

[Susan]

I am sure you will come up with something. In fact, no need. Your Mom was I am sure extremely proud of you.

[Magi]

I am so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you ended up having a really good relationship with your mother. Take what comfort you can from that.

[susan]

A big hug to you. I'm sorry about the loss of your mom at such a young age.

[Courtney in Crete]

I'm sorry.

[Lise]

I'm so sorry. I went through the loss of my mom four years ago, and although I miss her every day the pain does eventually lessen. I'm sure your mother was already very proud of you, and took great joy in you and in your beautiful little family.

[melissa]

i am so sorry to hear about your loss. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. --lemonade quilt swapper

[Katie J]

Hugs to you and your family. What a lovely tribute. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Robin from Israel]

I'm so very sorry. My thoughts are with you in this difficult time.

[Jodes]

May the source of peace send peace to you and your family.

[Ings]

I was so sad when I read this. Your mom was a great lady... My thoughts are with you.

[Isabel]

I am so very very sorry.

XOXOOX

[dee]

I am so sorry. My mom died 01-31-10 and I wish I had some wise thoughts to share with you but honestly some days I wonder how I will ever feel like me again.

Hugs

[Jo]

I just found this post through Google recommendations. Oh the irony. I'm so very sorry V. And I have no doubt she was already very, very proud of you. You are the Something Special. x

[Catherine]

Oh dear. I often check back to see if you have written anything. I am so sorry for your family's loss. I wish you a long life. XCath